Good News!

Yup, sorry I have been delayed in posting. Neal pointed out to me that I should be updating this at least. Good news and bad news should have equal weights.

I'm pregnant! Today, I'm officially 10 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Not a whole lot of tummy yet and I haven't exactly been gaining weight recently. I've had major cases of morning, noon and evening sickness. I've spotted once when I did something stupid and tried to clean the backyard. I've had medicines, slept all day when I could and had minor food cravings. I've had lots of mood swings. Mostly work related which is good for Neal but bad for me. I've been too busy at work to write anything. We just finished SCAMPI A and I had to work 12 hour days for 2 weeks straight without any work from home days. I've been stressed because of people at work pushing em to do things when no one else will help me. Happily, I'm now past that. Though I still have a major project just starting. I feel more at ease.

I still have horrible bouts of fatigue and there are times I sneak into small conference rooms just so I can catch some sleep. I still go to work with Neal so I usually arrive at work 6:30-7:00AM and I leave around 7:30-9:00PM so it is very tiring.

There are days when I feel like eating certain kinds of food. I don't eat a lot though. Like my Sbarro pizza craving and I didn't even end up finishing it. I'm craving a fruit salad now. Most of my cravings are meat particularly beef. I once had a dinner of steak and vanilla milkshake. Yes I finished that for some reason. I want soup most of the time and I love cooking Filipino foods like Nilaga and Tinola. I would love Nilaga now.

We're scared of course. Every little thing scares me and I ask my doctor like I haven't been through this before.

I had a dream once, that we were waiting for my baby and my sister suddenly says that's him. Then this cute little baby walks up then falls down because I realized he's too young to walk. He's perfect except his left arm isn't complete. It's like a small version of Hellboy's arm. I was crying and asking my sister why I couldn't have normal babies.

Basically, the last few months have been intense. I look forward to finishing my first trimester smoothly. No fevers or sicknesses. I just want to make sure my baby is safe.

Lastly, I know it's way too early but I swear I can feel my baby move. Not big movements and not all the time but I do feel him/her. Small jabs right in the middle. It's always in the same place and it's not a beat. I hope and pray my baby's ok. All we have right now is hope.