We've actively started trying to get pregnant last month so I will know this week if I am pregnant or not. I wish I could say I'm all smiles but not really. Because last Dec 28, I suffered from a fever for about half a day. I don't know what happened really. I guess my body just broke down since I have been working pretty hard inside the house and I caught a cold somewhere at the same time. We got home and I was already feeling bad. I barely slept and by morning, I was running a fever. It wasn't very high, I barely reached 37 C and according to the internet, 38.7 C is the magic number. However, it's still not enough to keep me from panicking. I don't know why I'm like this. For the entire year the only time I got sick was last week and the time I thought I was pregnant last October. It's like my body is rejecting the very idea and I don't understand why. Something always happens that makes me want to wish I wasn't pregnant yet. Arrgh! Life really hasn't finished kicking me it seems.
Here I was thinking I was getting better. I've actually started taking pictures of kids again, babies really and I haven't been crying. Jealous yes but at least just the normal kind. I guess it's still an improvement. The holidays haven't been rough since I've been busy. Now that things have settled down I do hope everything will be alright. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed.
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