Good News

Tragedy or depression does not mix well with good news.

We were watching P.S. I Love You, a movie with Gerard Butler and Hillary Swank. Hillary Swank plays a 30 year old woman who just lost her husband of 11 years(Gerard Butler). There's a scene there where Hillary Swank is on a boat together with her two friends and she learns that one of them is pregnant and the other is about to get married. I definitely understand the look on her face. Her character isn't bad. She feels happy for her friends but sometimes when you are in that state, good news feel like you're applying lemons to your wound while trying to look happy.
When I turn to Neal he said, "Well at least Arf hasn't told you she's getting married."

Add to that the fact that we just found out Hershey (another one of Neal's friend's wife) is also 5 months pregnant. That's their second child.

Maybe it would have been easier to deal had not everyone I known was having a baby this year. Maybe, maybe not. This is the bitter (and brutal I might add) life fate has dealt me this year. I just have to deal and live with it.

There's always hope that it'll get better. I hope. I'm seriously doubting I had any easy years in my life. Maybe I'm just too optimistic to notice.

This year kind of gives new meaning to the term "kicking you while you're down."

I really wish it was near the end not just the middle of the year. It's really depressing how time slows down when you don't want it to.