Loneliness

I do feel depressed. I think though that being lonely is worse. I don't believe that Neal has gotten over Nathan's death. He just doesn't show it and it makes me sad because I always feel so alone when I'm sad. Maybe if we were sad together it will be ok. We are still going to wait though. I just want to move out of here before I get pregnant again. When I do, I promise I'll be prepared to do anything. Even take a sabbatical just to make sure my baby's ok. I owe Nathan that much.