back to work

I'm kinda apprehensive about going back to work. I didn't want anyone to know about my baby's problems back when we found out. Then when I gave birth and everything happened, I also didn't want them to know because I didn't want them to look at me differently. I didn't want them to feel sorry for me. When people do that I always have to keep a brave face. It's harder that way. I'd rather be treated the same way so that I don't have to keep up this brave face. I usually end up comforting them instead of the other way around. I have to go back soon though. I can't spend my afternoons or nights crying anymore.