I love having late night conversations with my husband. Sometimes I feel guilty because I don't need to wake up early the next morning and he does. He has started going to work again and he told me how awkward it was to talk to other people about baby Nathan. It's hard to talk about your kid without choking up or crying. He did mention that he also talked to an officemate of his who also lost a baby. He mentioned that the quickest fix is another baby.
Another baby is not meant to replace the lost child. I understand it though. Your body takes 9 months to prepare and when you lose a child, your body feels like it's missing something. I feel like I lost a limb and I can't get it back.
Arrgh!!! What I need now is patience. Patience and hope. I can't be scared if I do get pregnant again and I can't hurry this or something bad may happen again. Sometimes its just so hard.
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