Dangers

My doctor started me on Diane 35 again. I was taking it for a couple of months before I got pregnant with Nathan and I started to read on the dangers again because she's making me take it again.
There's this small idea gnawing in my mind that there may be a connection between Diane 35 and Nathan's congenital defects.
My chest hurts. I don't want it to be true. I really believe I can't live with the knowledge that I could have done something to prevent what happened.
What if I had not taken Diane 35 and gotten pregnant earlier? What if I had gotten pregnant months after that instead of one month after I stopped?
Then I realize if I did, Nathan would not be Nathan. I may not even have the same baby. I may not even get a boy.
I promised myself I would NEVER regret anything that is related to Nathan and this is one of those things.