That's usually the thing I do best when I have problems. Right now, I'm running away from my sadness by going to work, exercising like there's no tomorrow and planning trips I can't afford. I know that this year should get better because I pretty much hit rock bottom. I'm just climbing my way out. It's just that everything I have to look forward to is at the end of this year or the beginning of next year. My house, the trip I can't afford and hopefully, a new baby. All the months between then and now are scaring me. It's only June! The days are crawling by and I have to wait 6 months, 6 months for everything to happen. I can't.
I'm planning a trip to Japan just so I have something to look forward to. I really don't think I can afford it. We spent so much on everything that happened. I don't know if we have enough time to recover from that and the car and the house.
I wish I could. I can try but I know that the reason I haven't budgeted the trip yet is because I don't want to face the fact that I can't go. If I can't go I won't have a concrete reason why I shouldn't be pregnant yet and I'll just be depressed... The cycle goes on.
I'm running away very unsuccessfully.
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