vulnerability

I find that spending too much time commuting alone is also bad for my health. Or maybe just bad because I listen to songs and when I hear songs that remind me of Nathan I'm always in danger of breaking down. I've shed tears twice in a bus now. I don't feel sad all the time... It's just that there are times when it suddenly hits you like a speeding car and you're left flat on your back. I still have my small bouts of jealousy. I guess I just don't want to be alone.