Father's Day

I've been feeling better the last couple of days. It has a lot to do with Neal and not being alone. Work has at least made most of my days noisy. I don't get lonely as often as before.
We also had good news last week. The engineer called to say that the foundation for the house has been started. That's one good thing. One step closer to living our own life and one step closer to being able to try having children again.
My hope levels are rising like crazy. I'm actually studying japanese again and looking forward to trips.
I still miss what I don't have. I guess "miss" is the wrong term. Since I never experienced most of it, how can you miss something you never had?
Father's Day was better than Mother's Day for me. We celebrated it and I didn't cry. In two weeks we will be visiting baby Nathan again. I can't wait. I wonder what I'll leave him this time.